Black Wi(n)dow

You feared to be poisoned, if I cooked for you
ever since I found out you deceived me
You thought maybe I would kill you
if I were to pay you a visit
after you backstabbed me and betrayed me

But you did all the work for me –
armed with stupidity & foolishness
you hurt and harmed yourself the most
afraid to give voice and conscience to
your damaged soul, you wrecked your body instead

You did the hard work for me
by holding me at an arm’s length
preventing yourself from being loved,
receiving love and utmost care,
blocking the wisdom of another soul

“Undisciplined boys turn into undisciplined men,
who end up in jail, the hospital or the grave” –
With one foot in prison and the other one
in the ER, you placed yourself closer and
closer to the grave you dug for others…

And as I watched you stage your own reality
I had to scratch my head and ask myself
What on Earth prompted such self-destructiveness
Why usurp control from the caring hands of one,
and put it in your own, Black Wi(n)dow?